This is the second time I've borrowed it out and both times I renewed it twice and this time it's overdue.
A month overdue.
Do you have any idea how much I hate having overdue books out from the library?
It's a lot.
But I cannot cannot CANNOT return this book until I've finished it.
Not this time!
And the really sad thing, the incredibly sad thing, is what the book is.
It's Australian Politics For Dummies.
How much of a dummy do you have to be for it to take you this long to read a book?
I keep picking it up at the end of the day and either I'm too tired and I start nodding off or it's making me tired.
The material is interesting enough but obviously it's very factual and a bit dry and you aren't really motivated to rush to the end and find out 'who did it' because it's politics, they all did it.
I would honestly have chucked it in the first time round except for three things:
- I refuse to be defeated by any book with 'For Dummies' in the title.
- This is stuff I really feel I should have a good handle on by now seeing as I'm an adult voting person.
- I HAVE ALREADY WRITTEN IT DOWN IN MY READING JOURNAL AND ONCE I HAVE WRITTEN IT DOWN IN MY READING JOURNAL I HAVE TO FINISH IT.
I can't have unfinished entries in my Reading Journal.
It would be unthinkable.
I know a lot of people have rules about how much of their time they'll give a book before they give it up as a bad lot.
Wil Wheaton has said he has a '100 pages or 1 hour' rule and if it hasn't caught his interest by then, it's toast.
I can respect that.
Life is too short to waste it trudging through terrible books.
Normally I don't have that trouble because if a book is truly TRULY that heinous, I'll have noticed before I get around to jotting its details down in the Reading Journal.
Some cruddy books I'll finish out of a sort of perverse bloody-mindedness because I want to be able to tell other people in excruciating detail exactly how bad it was from one end to another.
But this book isn't bad, it's just dense because of its subject matter, and I'm just being weird and lazy about getting it read.
I've been avoiding reading it because I can't be arsed but this means I haven't been reading much else either, and I miss reading, proper reading.
So now I am rolling my sleeves up, taking myself by the ear and not putting up with any more of my rubbish.
I will finish this book in the next few days.
I will return it to the library.
I will apologise profusely and pay my fine.
Then I will get on with my life.
There are too many other books waiting for me out there to let this go on any longer.